RIP Bob

Read this morning that A.C. "Bob" Guhl died. He was, at one time, a Georgia state senator but randomly we met years before when we both worked for Dover Elevator Company in the SF Bay Area. My dad got sick and passed away during my tenure working for Bob, which is probably why I remember working for him so clearly: it was safer to be at work, concentrating on anything other than my dad in the hospital. I was 18 and hired as a temp to be his executive secretary and he would retire in three months time. He was tall, white-haired, serious, and barely said a word directly to me as I handed him papers, took dictation (yes, everybody - that's a thing, and I don't mean euphemistically), scheduled his life. On his last day, I was walking out of his office and he stopped me by actually calling me by name. Honest to god, I didn't even think he knew my actual name. He asked me to sit, folded his hands atop his enormous empty desk and said, "You probably think I don't care since I'm about to retire and we'll never see each other again. Anne, tell me what you're going to do with your life." I remember telling him, I remember him listening and asking questions, but honestly don't remember exactly what I said. I guess what matters is: he was very kind to me for a blip in time, and for that I am thankful. RIP, Bob.

Gym Bunny

'member how I claimed this blog wouldn't be all about me? Let me take that back for just a moment and say: I went to the gym today. For the first time. Ever. For reals. I headed to the 2nd floor so that I could survey my domain. 45 minutes on the treadmill, no big deal, but I suppose a very big deal in the grand scheme of things.

Calls are flooding in...

Everyone is SO worried about me...thanks for the calls...keep 'em coming...
Love, Pasteur E. Bola

Si je pouvais dîner avec 1-2 personnes mortes, je...

Si je pouvais dîner avec 1-2 personnes mortes, je choisirais H.G. Wells et Jules Verne. J’adore lire la science-fiction. Ces hommes sont considérés comme “les pères fondateurs” du genre de science-fiction. J’aime leurs histoires fantastiques et je serais ravie d’entendre leurs aventures en personne. M. Verne pourrait nous décrire des créatures magiques de la mer, et M. Wells pourrait nous raconter des Martiens et des hommes invisibles. Une bonne idée: M. Wells pourrait les conduire à dîner dans sa machine a explorer le temps! Si les hommes se rencontraient en personne, ils pourraient être jaloux l’un de l’autre. J’espère que leur réunion ne mènerait pas à une lutte - ou pire - une bataille de nourriture. Peut-être que je devrais les inviter à dîner au restaurant plutôt que chez moi.

Familiale by Jacques Prévert - une réponse

This was in response to my French 101 professor's assignment, "Écrivez une version de ce poème (Familiale) qui n’en fait pas satire, qui est une version sérieuse." Familiale is a poem by Jacques Prévert. Here is my childish effort. Please to enjoy:

 

“La guerre, la guerre,” disent la mère et le père
Le fils dit, “Je ne veux pas y aller.”
“Vous devez, vous devez,” disent la mère et le père
Le fils murmure doucement, “Ouais.”

“Notre fils est en guerre,” disent la mère et le père

Le fils dit, “Je vais bien.”
“Il va bien, il va bien,” disent la mère et le père
Le fils ne dit rien

“Notre fils est parti,” disent la mère et le père

Le fils ne parle plus
Ils pleurent pour lui, la mère et le père
La guerre, la guerre c’est tout.

Spenser: Far Higher

I voiced my displeasure with Robert B. Parker’s Early Autumn, moaning, “where’s the blood” and “gimme some murder!” My problem was not with the novel itself – I believe it to be beautifully written – but that it is much more a coming of age story than a crime novel. Early Autumn is about a relationship tested and a boy learning life lessons, and its pages provide a portrait of the detective I believe to be the most ethical of the detectives we have read: Spenser. I define ethics as, simply, the Golden Rule: treat other people as you would like to be treated. At first blush, perhaps too simple to use in this essay, and indeed the golden rule casts a wide net. The golden rule is, however, a way of living, and it is the way each detective moves through life –albeit a fictional life – that will be examined here. It occurs to me that in order to develop a list of suspects, police – or in this case, the detective –must prove motive. In the same way, I will determine the motivation of the detectives – why they behave the way they do – and conclude that Spenser is indeed far higher than the rest. I will then examine how Parker broadcasts the importance of leading an ethical life through Spenser’s actions.

What motivates the other detectives, then? Block’s Matthew Scudder is a man forever atoning for his sin. He lights candles at the local Catholic church: “And, of course, one for Estrellita Rivera, who would never get to be eight” (The Sins of the Fathers, 19). Scudder does good because he did bad, not because doing good is the right thing to do. McBain’s Andy Parker is motivated by racism. We discussed at length in class that Andy is unaware of his racism. I disagree, but more to the point: being unaware is inexcusable. I highly doubt that after years on the force in that particular precinct, that Andy does not understand how his attitude and words can be so upsetting, harmful, and dangerous. Perhaps because I listened to the audio version of the book, I paid keener attention to the inflection of Andy’s voice each time he was accused of saying something racist, and Andy was not believable. “Hell, you know me better than that. I don’t care if a guy’s Puerto Rican or Chinese,” Andy says. Hernandez replies with a deadpan, “Sure” (See Them Die, 84). Hernandez agrees with me. Hammett’s Sam Spade may have his own code, but his motivation is revenge –revenge for his murdered partner. Spade triumphantly tells Brigid, “You killed Miles and you’re going over for it” (The Maltese Falcon, 213). Hammett’s Continental Op wants to see the guilty hang. His motivation is simple bloodlust. He solves each crime and the criminal is turned in, but at the end of nearly every story he nearly salivates as he declares their fates. “With her assistance it was no trick at all to gather up the rest of the evidence we needed to hang him (“The Tenth Clew,” 38). “You’re going to Seattle, Ed, to hang for Ashcraft’s suicide” (“The Golden Horseshoe,” 81). “The Chinese went to the gallows” (“The House in Turk Street,” 108). “They hanged him” (“The Farewell Murder,” 287). Placing Spenser upon a pedestal and declaring him far higher than the rest is almost unfair. At great personal cost – monetary, and his relationship with Susan – Parker takes on a summertime chore to raise, for all intents and purposes, an orphan. What a guy. Parker paints Spenser as a hero, but he is no Christ-like figure or superhero – he is just a man. Spenser’s motivation, shown time and again, is living by and passing on the assets of the golden rule.

I attempted to determine at what moment Spenser decides he must help Paul – I mean, reallyhelp the boy. Paul initially mistrusts Spenser. “What do you care? It’s not your business. Whyn’t you leave me alone?” “Because right now you’re in my keeping and I’m trying to decide what’s best to do with you” (26). Spenser knows that all the boy needs is guidance, and without it, he will remain adrift. For example, Paul hangs on the periphery of every conversation he comes near. This behavior resonates with me, recognized as a habit of an only child. As much as a teenager tries to act cool and aloof, those ears are open, not wanting to miss a thing: Paul overhears Spenser’s confrontation with Mel and Elaine (20-24); Paul sits right in the room “watching television” as his mom pawns him off in order to achieve a private evening (31-34); Paul witnesses Harold and Buddy bullying their way in (71-74). Just afterward, Spenser confesses that he feels sorry for Paul, and that is why he agrees to, in essence, babysit. I do not think Spenser has yet decided to take the boy on as a project, though, I think that comes later, and I think it is on page 62:“Your father ever take care of you?” Spenser asks. Paul replies, “No.” The reader is told little to nothing of Spenser’s relationship with his own father, but to my mind it is that simple exchange that threads the needle for Spenser. Paul must be taught to be, in Spenser’s word, “autonomous” (99).

Building a house is such a strong symbol in and of itself in the importance of living an ethical life. The Christian tradition would invoke the parable of the wise and foolish builders, and the importance of having a strong foundation. Of the many things Spenser knows he can teach Paul, that foundation is by far the most important. Though the symbolic house building is a lovely image, Parker’s lessons are spelled out beautifully on their own in simple life lessons. “A way of living better is to make the decisions you need to make based on what you can control”(114). Spenser and Paul have a long discussion about gun violence and his personal rules – Paul speaks first: “How come you didn’t shoot them?” “I didn’t need to” (75). “Why don’t you?” “Something to do with the sanctity of life. That kind of stuff” (76). It is Spenser’s summation and final conclusion that are the most telling: “You make rules for yourself and know that you’ll have to break them because they won’t always work” (76). Spenser gently guides Paul toward ethical action: “I also think it’s bad form to talk about your mother that way to a stranger.” “Why?” “It’s just not done” (28). Later, Spenser does so again: “How come you wouldn’t let her pay for it?” “It didn’t seem the right thing to do” (35). “I still don’t see why you want to pay for my dinner.” “I’m not sure. It has to do with propriety. Appropriateness. Doing things right”(37). Spenser explains to Susan, “The kid’s never been taught how to act. He doesn’t know anything. He’s got no pride. He’s got nothing he’s good at. He’s got nothing but the tube.” “I’ll teach him what I know. I know how to do carpentry. I know how to cook. I know how to punch. I know how to act” (98). Spenser leads by example, though, even when Paul is not there to witness. “Do you think [Paul would] think less of me than he does now?” Patty asks. “No. He’d think less of me” (67), Spenser replies. He continues, “I’m committed to another woman. I’m committed to protecting your son. Screwing his mom, pleasant as that would be, is not productive” (69).

Ethical living, according to Parker, stems from honesty. Right from the start, Spenser never lies to Paul. He is brutally honest and tells the boy what he needs to hear, no matter how hard it might be. At the cabin, Spenser gets right to the heart of the matter: “Your parents are no help to you. If anything, they hurt. You can’t depend on them. They got you to where you are. They won’t get better. You have to” (123). When Spenser tells Paul he plans to blackmail his parents, he says,“But remember, you probably will care. It probably will hurt. It’s okay for it to hurt. It’s very sensible that it should hurt” (160). Spenser knows that holding back the truth would only do Paul a disservice, and teaches Paul that it is literally bad to pull your punches, all the while delicately teaching him that honesty is the best policy.

In “The Simple Art of Murder,” Raymond Chandler claims a detective must be “the best man in his world and a good enough man for any world.” I would take Spenser in my world any day, and am thankful that Robert B. Parker was in my world for a time, even though I was not aware of him. Paul asks Spenser if Hawk is his friend. “He’s not good. But he’s a good man. You know the difference? You will. It’s a difference I’m going to help you learn” (108). With Early Autumn, Parker left a legacy by mapping out instructions for leading an ethical life. Spenser teaches Paul, and Parker teaches us, simply and effectively.

A Picture Speaks Volumes in Ed Brubaker’s Criminal, Volume One: Coward

Ed Brubaker’s Criminal, Volume One: Coward echoes several of the books we have read this term: Parker’s Early Autumn, Block’s Sins of the Fathers, and especially Macdonald’s The Goodbye Look. Brubaker tackles several themes, but the one I choose to focus on is that of fathers and sons. Fathers teach their sons many things; bravery among them. Our “hero” Leo Patterson is repeatedly accused of being a coward, and even accuses himself. If true, where did the pattern originate, and why do others continue to recognize it? The panel showing Leo on his subway ride home after his initial chat with Seymour and Jeff at the museum is the most significant thematically because it encapsulates his present and his past by invoking both memories of his father and visions of his future self.

Memory is a tricky business, and Leo Patterson is a man with a lot on his mind. Throughout the graphic novel, his thought bubbles more than likely tally a larger word count than his speech bubbles, if one were to count them. The reader has been given Leo’s back-story and he confesses, “I’m scared of ending up like my father.” As he rides the subway train, he thinks about the proposition presented to him by his former crony Seymour and crooked cop Jeff as he stares off into the cityscape. He recalls what corrupt police have done to his friends and family, and as he stares at his own face, he remembers the countless widows and orphans made manifest by street violence. Leo knows that violent world, and he knows it because he was brought into it by his own father. Sure, Leo’s dad went to jail for him and died there for him, but at what cost to his son, in the end? Leo is left fatherless, as Greta’s daughter Angie is, and fatherless by the same root cause. Sure, he has the addled junkie Ivan, but Leo has become more of a father to him than Ivan ever was in return. Leo says he can “never forget,” and so that paternal memory nags at him in empty moments like a subway ride.
Thoughts of memory lead to thoughts of present, and of future. Even if the thought bubble were not there, the panel would speak. Leo is a man looking at his own reflection: a moment of reflection. Buildings, streets and their garbage whizz by, yet there is his image, strong and clear, reflected in plexiglass. I am no artist, so I cannot determine if those lines are scratches on the subway window or representations of the outside world passing by. I believe that they tie in beautifully with the words in the panel, be they scratches or lines: they are scars. We are given Leo’s thoughts: “Those wounds were scars that’d be easier to hide, but they were scars all the same.” Brubaker – through Leo – is absolutely correct. Leo sees his reflection, and he can see both actual scars – some from battle and some from age – as well as deeply embedded internal scars.
Travelling via subway, it should not be forgotten that there is one sense that could be missed altogether, especially when reading a book, and that is sound. Leo is having a moment of reflection, but certainly not silent reflection. Blocking out subway noise – musicians, lunatic homeless, screaming children, fervent preaching – is not an easy task, and I daresay Leo has no intention of trying. Entirely shutting out the noisy world leads to the type of silent contemplation that could lead to deep depression – and an uncovering of past internal scars – and Leo wants no part of that. He is thinking of his past, and he is thinking of his dad, and he does not want to become his dad. It could be imagined that the one noise that supersedes all is the train on the tracks – that clack-clack-clack. I imagine that repetitive trance-inducing auditory pattern creating a mantra in his head: I won’t be like him, I won’t be like him, I won’t be like him… Leo tells Greta that “Violence just…it’s got a ripple effect. You know that. And I try not to cause any ripples.” Ripples echo outward both visually and acoustically, and Leo gets a dose of both in the reflection of his image.
The difficulty in looking at oneself – and I mean really looking at oneself in a literal sense, i.e., the window reflection – is that what one sees is a representation; in actuality, what is seen is a backwards image. There is no way to see oneself as others do. I realize the panel I chose is incredibly simple, but I honestly think it speaks volumes about the entire graphic novel. In the end, the story is not about pickpockets, shootouts and drug deals. When Leo needs a hideout, he heads to his ancestral homestead – the place where past, present and future meld. Beyond the blood, violence, and death is a man with a history. In the end, the past does invoke the future – the violence he is capable of – or, as Leo puts, it, “of what’s inside of me.” His redemption complete – saving young Angie and returning the heroin – Leo and his family farm both end as ashes blowing past the window of a rapid subway train.